Lucille Gang Shulklapper
Where Does Light Go when It Dies?
Light dies in the arms of smothered desire. It dies in waiting rooms of doctors and auditors, who, checking the pulse and adding the columns ignore its plea. It dies in traffic lights that snarl
red, jamming the music of a prayer. Light finds buried caverns, so deep their stalactites reach China, but dies trying to touch it. Light scurries, a sand crab digging for water, dying in its waves of thirst.
Light flickers on Mount Trashmore; it dies in mound-mouthed garbage; floats on barges toward other dumps, a tinsel flash in graveyards lost. Who will put flowers on its grave?
Eyes close, eyelids weigh ocean tears. When light dies, it enters the dust of unborn souls, hangs hurricane lamps by their bedside, and moonshades in the shapeless night.
(Appears in chapbook collection, The Substance of Sunlight (Gininnderra Press: Australia).
And What Importance Do I have in the Courtroom of Oblivion?
I have this much: Sammy said, “I love you,” slipping the handle from the open door, holding his seven-year-old shoulders high, straw hair uncombed, loose teeth unbrushed, parents away, away-o. I am his lifeline. I have evidence. Breakfast crumbs from his toast, stains from cracked eggs, fragmented shells, an empty plate. Proof of a grandmother’s love.
I have a cat book, curled-up pages, a pummeled pillow, two swimming towels, sweat socks, a tee shirt with the shark from Jaws. I keep bottled water on ice in the freezer. In the decay of memory, I will summon love. In my trial, it is all.
Appears in Substance of Sunlight
Why is Psyche Like A Circus of the Mind?
Because clowns stumble in the circus I create, Like a tipsy paperweight freighted with fallen birds, flowered with clouds frothing at the mouth, I want to balance the colored prism.
Like a tipsy paperweight freighted with fallen birds within whiteglass prisons, I want to balance the colored prism you see that I wish I could hold.
Within whiteglass prisons, snow domes crack. You see that I wish I could hold stilts like crutches, that touch ceilings.
Snow domes crack when sleet rages. Stilts like crutches, that touch ceilings hold things together, that swirl, that eddy.
When sleet rages, omens whiteblacken before turning grey, hold things together, that swirl, that eddy. Clowns stilttipping, red mouths sad.
Omens whiteblacken before turning grey if I walk high-wired without nets. Clowns stilttipping, red mouths sad beckon me toward falls.
If I walk high-wired without nets, I am alone, not alone, while spectators beckon me toward falls where redpainted mouths silently cry.
I am alone, not alone, while spectators flowered with clouds, frothing at the mouth, hold their airweighted breath, because clowns stumble in the circus I create.
Appears in The Substance of Sunlight Lucille Gang Shulklapper leads workshops for The Florida Center for the Book, an affiliate of the Library of Congress. Her poetry appears in The Art Times, Curbstone Review, Slant, and others. She is the author of What You Cannot Have (Flarestack Publishing) and The Substance of Sunlight, (Ginninderra Press. )
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Jason Fraley
Rip Rap
Catfish swim to the inlet’s surface to shed their skin of moss. Beginnings of a green sheet. Barges harnessed to rusted cauldrons. River smooth for this moment, a burial where the bones are first removed, polished, and placed on the shore near the body.
Beachfront at Dusk
The ocean no longer has a skeleton. Still it locks hands with the moon and dances, casts bones hollowed by waves and wind across the shore as if the Atlantic desires more than the constant sound of its own drowning.
Broken engagement
She flinches when the wind slides across her palm, notices
night when nearing the shadows of apple branches burdened with fruit.
She rubs the pale halo of soft skin on her finger, a wound where ghosts
escaped, scattering their bones across the empty sky.
Bone Garden
Give me your hands, fingers spread wide.
Watch my unshaven face till your palms, open them
to wetness and feeling. Wipe uprooted skin away.
I’ll plant my tongue in your palm. Hard
rain of breath sows teeth into bone.
Sunday Morning
Crows arrive before dawn to pluck blackberries. You call this sorrow. At least this fruit won't gather dust.
Drupelets break inside the bird’s stomach, collide with each other before dissolving. Just as Christ
wrestled himself in the mornings to the echo of wings.
Jason Fraley is a newlywed and works at an investment firm. His first chapbook of poetry, The Arche of Existentialism, is available through Little Poems Press. His poetry has appeared or is forthcoming in Confluence, Amarillo Bay, Tryst, Redactions, Snow Monkey, Pebble Lake Review, and others.
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Daniel Donaghy
Clever
When a man came to my door asking about the Chevette by the curb, I told the truth: cracked cylinder head, bad brakes, a timing belt that could
snap any day, and I expected him to be like the rest, to say thank you and leave, but instead he asked to take a look, said he had a friend
who was clever with cars, who’d fix anything for fifty bucks and a case of beer. I held the door while he leaned in and clicked the key, pressed
on the pedal to make her roar louder than I thought she could. He offered 150, __twice as much as the junk yard, so we shook on it,
then walked back to the house for title and plates. I kept on about extra fuses in the glove, told him how the seats recline
all the way back, not sure if I should mention how Robin Richie taught me that our senior year, or how
she kicked a dent in the dash that night on Snake Road when we were finally alone, when I let her hair down
and buried my face in her breasts, not sure he would care to know how our flesh melted to the seats, or how her neck smelled,
sweet strawberry scent that wafted over the plastic Mary hung from the mirror, over our knotted shoes and sweaty hump of clothes,
over our stiff bodies, out the window and down the road that led to Visitation church and then to our homes,
side-by-side tenements with yards linked by a gate my father chained shut when he caught me sneaking in
one four a.m, Robin’s black bra under my arm, his beer on my breath, my shirt out, her bedroom light snapping off just as our door clicked shut.
first published in Yarrow
Laundry Night, 1983
Some nights she’d throw their clothes into the car's trunk and take off, hair rollered tight, no note, mother of two teenagers gone for hours down Oakdale and Albert Streets, Frankie Avalon singing “Venus” above the old Rambler's tapping valves as it machine-gunned past Griffin's Deli and Garzone’s Funeral Home, past Visitation Church and School, her unringed fingers tapping the wheel, her breathing easier by the time she made the tricky right at Kip Street and swished into her usual spot outside Soapy Suds, almost forgetting her husband had left, she couldn’t find a job, almost outrunning the family she broke from when they said he was no good, “A Perfect Love,” “Don’t Throw Away All Those Teardrops” coming back from the kitchen of their first apartment. And now it turned out her family was right, a scar on her cheek the proof, and the stack of bills, the nightmares of police coming to take her children, her house, her dog, leaving her nothing-- and so the fears flowed while she sorted the brights and darks, knowing there was no getting clean after months of crying herself to sleep, no point in scrubbing the stains ground into their lives, grass stains, blood stains so much a part of her they might as well have been skin, no way to make her children look presentable on what he sent every other week, her own clothes stretched like her sagging arms and breasts, her shoes so holy they could be saints, little joke she told the washer when she dropped in a load of whites, “Bobby Socks to Stockings” coming back after twenty years when she measured the powdered soap, the fabric softener, the bleach, always the bleach, which still stung her nose after the cycle was done, when she pulled out the clothes and held them overflowing in her arms.
first published in Poet Lore
Soon summer will be over and the bugs will be gone,
Marguerite says, skipping into the overgrown field of goldenrod and yarrow, so far from the Y's other counselors and kids that when I look back I can't see the building or the playground, and I can’t help thinking it must have been a scene like this from which a man abducted her last year, dyed her hair red and called her by his dead daughter’s name, and about all that might one day flood into her consciousness, how even though doctors told her mother it might take years, might never come back, I hold her hand knowing if it does there will be nothing anyone can do to end her grief, and that if it all came back now, there would be nothing more I could do than what I’m doing. As we head down a trail, I ask if she’s having fun, and she says yes and snatches a few more ladybugs, making over twenty for the hour, some big with spots on each wing, others tiny with no spots at all, their shells flawless as her face, her cupped hands scooping them one by one into our bowl before she opens the lid and sets them free.
first published in Two Rivers Review
Streetfighting
When my sister fell into the house crying, holding her face, I knew even before she pulled back her hands what her boyfriend Benny had done.
I ran upstairs to get my sneakers even though it was nine o’clock on a school night, almost time for bed, my mother’d told me minutes before,
my sister’s boyfriend sixteen, me twelve, wishing I’d paid more attention to my father’s drunken boxing lessons–– left hand over right, feet shoulder-width apart,
his slippers shuffling around that closet of a kitchen while I followed him in slow looping circles–– same moves I made after I raced out the front door
wanting someone to stop me, mix of who I was and thought I had to be swirling in my head since he left us in inner city Philadelphia, where
any day my mother could get mugged, my sister raped, any day I could get my ass kicked defending them in a fight, anger lasting me only long enough
for one good crack to the jaw before I fell back into myself and felt the punches rain down, the kicks, the shots to the stomach
that knocked the wind out of me like the sight of his truck pulling away, not once looking into the rear view before he hit the gas and screeched
beneath the Market-Frankford El, pain I swallowed until I’d let nothing hurt us, clenching and unclenching my fists as I walked toward where
I knew Benny would be, same fists I flung into my father’s gut those nights their voices rose, still feeling the crown of my head
against his ribs, still seeing the glint of florescent light off his belt buckle while my mother locked herself in their bedroom and called him
a crazy drunk, and with all this I found Benny laughing with his friends, one leg up on a car fender, one hand wrapped around a beer can,
with all this I charged at him and plowed my head into his chest, swung at his jaw and neck, seeing not Benny’s but my father’s face,
unmistakable––the bloodshot eyes, the scar plowing across his forehead–– and I flailed all of my weight at him as many times as I could, roundhouses,
jabs, hooks, hitting and getting hit, I’m sure, but not feeling any of it, our neighbors circled around us, some cheering, some with crossed arms
while blood flowed from our faces and hands, sprayed onto houses and cars, onto our shirts and sneaks and jeans, before it mixed with the glass-littered ground.
first published in The Southern Review
You and Irene
It's Saturday night, senior year. Everyone off someplace warm: basement parties, barrel fires.
Kensington Avenue is all piss and beer, empty stores, stale air trapped beneath the El
you'll take tonight to meet Irene at the Devon movie theater, El you used to climb with friends
to beat the fare, shimmying a beam ten feet until you reached a service ladder, then climbing
the last forty toward South Street or the Spectrum, rising into the station's fluorescent glow,
never looking below until Wild C fell into a broken back, you watching from the catwalk
as he flipped once and landed on his head, doctors sure he wouldn't make the week
but he lasted three months, head twice its normal size and purple, never coming out
of the dark, the way light never cuts through the El tracks on Kensington, where it's always night,
rusted steel sky hovering, shadows falling from everywhere, slashing the wet crosses
above old Frankie and his wine, and Richie from the bike shop, guarding hookers asleep
in doorways until horns honk, pulling at Ann Russell as she dies of a heart attack,
and Joel Frazier as he chops crank on a hand mirror, and it sweeps up you too
as you shuffle toward the steps to Irene and the movies, Wild C still falling, your arm
still flailing the air because the past is never past, it's always present,
and you hope something funny is playing tonight, something you and Irene
can laugh about at the Melrose over coffee and smokes, little jukebox crooning,
neon lights lining the ceiling, casting out shadows, streaming down onto your booth.
first published in Beacon Street Review
Daniel Donaghy grew up in the Kensington section of Philadelphia. He is the author of a book-length collection of poems, Streetfighting, and two chapbooks, Stadium Traffic and Kensingston Avenue. He has received fellowships from the National Endowment for the Humanities, the Constance Saltonstall Foundation for the Arts, and the Cornell Council for the Arts. His poems have appeared in various journals, including The Southern Review, Poet Lore, Alaska Quarterly Review, Texas Review, Commonweal, Image, New Letters, and West Branch. He lives in Spencerport, NY, with his wife and daughter.
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Keli Stafford
Mannequins
Growing up absurd in a museum without walls; statues, empty headed, with their mad black hair, stand in a small circle chipped and scarred.
Eyes lead into corridors, through objects, snapshots, past a still life. On a shelf of horrors the books are dated with the hour, day, year.
A globe that was bought to acquire its stand joins yellowing newspapers, thirty years old, and a social registry that dropped the family name.
Crowds tramp through as the amputated busts, like beggars, waylay them in dirt and dust, amid fearful smells. They stand there still,
not bronze or stone, but garden plaster. A cast they made of a head in red clay, like savages guarding their soul,
they are in terror of throwing away. It is like being watched by a jealous ghost that rattles your dreams until they’ve broke.
Skin Diving
Anyone might shiver before the sun is up but the purgatory of my cure
stripped me of skin I can’t afford to lose. It seems to want me
to shrug it off, this skin like cellophane, nerve-peeled, fingering my wounds,
trying on skin like shoes. My hands are desperate, gathering up papers of littered
language. Hands toy with it, give up, fall to my lap. My flesh falls off too.
I stay where I am, avoid mirrors that strip me down for real, watching tissue
come away baby-fine and raw. Stripped down to blood and bone, just the faintest dying little
rail of a thing. Like a door shutting in increments, there is less and less of me.
Perfect Vision
I take it all in, to the last inch: the immaculate house; A glass paperweight brighter than sunrise; War maps done in watercolor dating from very far back. A painting done in a hotel garden has the status
Of sacred junk. Now I see the snare. Low ceilings, Earthen floor, rust-colored walls weeping with wetness. Spots deface the floor. A scarcely verbal caretaker Stands very still, trying not to breathe. Chokes back
Little sounds, hunger sounds, sick and starving. Dizzy wet, dripping liquid fire. So much want, So much terror. She shrinks away from the glass In the window, bids goodbye to herself in the mirror.
She returns to it. There is nowhere else to go.
Keli Stafford lives in Oregon with her husband and children. Her poetry has most recently appeared in Crimson Feet, Poetry Magazine, The Penwood Review, Asthetica, and The Southern Ocean Review.
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