The Pull to
Fire
Two people alone in a room know full
well what
they do.
I Conjure you up from composite fractions
bits and bites and better times
the you that was sacred to love
until now
I can not ever be the woman I first was
can not compete
with that fantasy girl
whose only requirement is to herself
Yes once
You were my only required course
voraciously
I read volumes of you
stored your words
deeply and in a precious place
Chaos is like labor pains
suspended somewhere inside an invisible
chasm All
I know is that it wasn't there before
and now it
lives here taken up residence like an
unwanted
guest like a hair on the soap
You go to a place where I do not exist
memories now that don’t contain me
you can remember her
whenever you want
On a breeze
dream up her face
My daily mirror of you
Matte and one dimensional
a tarnished spoon
I remember too well
your smooth charming pull
the sun drawing in a spinning planet
the heat felt good
even though I knew I would burn
The words you spoke then
with the charm and zen of ages of men
before you
Were bed words
not love
I heard what I needed
and fell into the jaws of you
let myself be devoured by your gravity
Su Young is from Southern Maine. She is
a freelance writer currently writing a book about
vintage purses. She is married, has 2
children, and one white dog with a big black nose.
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